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Again im hurt. Again im stress. Again im laughing. Again im crying. Again im shouting. Again im showing tantrums. Again im keeping quiet. Again im acting. Again im lying. I just dont get it what had actually happened to me. Life is full of ups and downs for me. I hate what im going through. I dont have a peaceful life. I regret making stupid decision which end up hurting me, it is hurting me continuously even after running away from this huge problems, reality. Its a catastrophe ! Can all these nonsense stop at once! I need a break, let me breathe. I cant be having insomnia every night. I cant be texting my friends at night when i cant sleep. This is so not me. Let me turn myself in. Please leave me alone will you? Stop haunting me with those memories, pictures. It is just killing me and hurting me. Eventhough im putting an act doesnt mean im strong, doesnt mean i dont care, doesnt mean i had forget about you totally. Im denying. I cant be putting an act all the time. I know you wont be reading this cos i bet you dont even know whats my blog url is. Im just so sad, im totally upset with you. Its only less than a month and you are showing me this? Showing me your true colours? How evil can you be? How bad can you be? I thought you promise not to hurt me? Again, its a fake promises. I just want you to be happy. I know i have never be a good boyfriend, a good friend. Im really sorry. Really sorry. Please do your part to get things fix back as how it used to. Bye.